I haven’t cut in about a week and a half but I’m so tempted because today was such a shitty day.
I feel every ounce of fat in me.
bonesandkush: My breathing makes the flab shake. I am very aware of the amount of grossness on my body. This is just shameful. I want to hide until I’m good enough to appear in public.
Craving Perfection ♥: (I really don't know what... →
cr4ving-perfection: I’m getting more and more pissed the more I think about this. I feel like a part of me wants my family and friends to know I’m not “ok” but I feel like I’m not sick enough for them to believe that I am actually really ill. I may be at a healthy weight yes. An eating disorder is a mental fucking illness. I understand treat everyone who is sicker than I am first. Go ahead. But...
ive binged all day but i cant throw anything up because my throat is bleeding ugh and not to mention my dad called me fat today
I hate when my dad actually cooks because he’s all happy and I can’t say no ugh
My friends want to go out to eat tonight and I did everything I could to get of it. I wish it was as easy as just going to the bathroom and purging, but they know.